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So... I finally broke down and went to the doctors and told him what was going on. I also had to talk to a crisis team member an now I have a referral to see a therapist. They are supposed to call me next week. Gotta start my first dose of Clonazepam tonight and Effeckzor tomorrow. Joyous right? Anything to feel better. I really hope this helps...

Finally....

So, after 6 years of battling the state of Iowa my mother has finally been approved for her SSDI. It lifts a great burden off of her shoulders to finally be able to afford the things that she needs and wants. She is positively glowing now that she feels she will finally be able to be independent. Her and I are seriously considering buying our own place to live. It'll probably only be a mobile home, but it'll be better than renting or staying where we are currently at.

Will update later when I can manage to put more than 50 words together coherently.

We're off to see the wizard...

So.... since I am the only one in the household who has an income ... again ... and I only have a part time job *I* will be loosing my cell phone and internet. I don't know how long before anything is turned back on. I don't even know if we will have a home phone. So, yeah... living off of less than 500$ a month for a family of 4 sucks.

Will post when I finally either a) get a full time job or b) someone else in my household does.

Cowgirl

So, I thought i'd show everyone (well, mostly Kelly ) what MiKayla is looking like now-a-days. She went to get her pictures done by her sister and I thought she looked awfully damn cute. She wore this outfit (not the boots) to school and the family thought it would be extremely cute for pictures. Can you believe she's only 8?!?!

*** Sorry the pictures are small, I dunno how to make them bigger!!!***

Updates on life.

Well, I am still working at the YMCA. On September 3rd it will be 6 months since I started there. The last two months I was working 40 hour weeks, which was hectic not being able to go outside and swim but the paychecks were NICE! :D

I just got done with my summer pool league session and the end of session tournament. My team placed 2nd! I won the final game that secured us 2nd place... it was an awesome feeling let me tell ya!

A few things on the home front. My aunt started dating this guy. Which is fine, I'm glad that she has found someone who makes her ... "happy" my problem is that she now spends almost no time with her daughter and she doesn't do anything around the house. I was working 40 hours a week an cleaning, cooking, laundry, dishes, babysitting... it was on my last nerve. I talked to my mom tonight about when/if she gets disability if she would consider moving out with me into a 2 bedroom apartment. I think it would be better for us and that we would be much happier. I just don't know how much longer I am going to be able to stay here in this environment without going crazy. Pretty soon here I am going to get another part time job (when they start looking for holiday help) that way I'll be able to save up some money to move out next year.

Also, I am taking a mini-vacation. I am going to my sisters house for 4 days. I am excited to be able to see my little niece who I haven't been able to see in over a year. Speaking of my sister, her and I have been talking a lot more lately. It's nice to be able to openly talk to her again, AND she lets me get a word in edgewise! :D

Well, hopefully I'll remember to post more often. I do read everyone's blogs still ....

Ashli

YMCA

So, I know I haven't posted in quite some time but I figured I might as well write a short update.
I am working at the YMCA as a Resident Desk Clerk.
My job is very easy, and most of the time I get paid to sit behind a desk and read.
There are times though when things do get really hectic, but I think that my trainer and boss have taught me all the necessary tools to deal with those sort of situations.
I just started the job early last week, and so far I really like it. Plus, I get a free membership at the YMCA so that makes up for the lack of money I get per hour! :D Can you say SWIMMING for me?! Ok, I gotta go and get ready for work... update more later!


Ashli

Meme stolen from Biscuit

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship? A. I'm not in a relationship currently, this is such a complicated answer! 2) What was your dream growing up?A. I wanted to be a doctor for babies and old people, actually quoting myself here lol, that way I could bring life into the world and ease the pain as it left. 3) What talent do you wish you had?A. To be able to draw. I draw like a kidnegartner on crack, it's really sad.4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?A. Watermelon pucker and Mt Dew. I can't drink the hard stuff anymore, it smells like nail polish remover. >.<5) Favorite vegetable?A. The only vegetable that I can't have is mushrooms, but I like most of the rest of 'em. Haven't found one I don't like yet.6) What was the last book you read?A. I don't remember the title of the actual book, but the series was called Riley Jenson series... *blush*7) What day of the week were you born on? Or Zodiac sign, your choice. ("I wasn't there, so I don't remember.")A. I'm competely and utterly a Taurus. And the Chinese zodiac I am an ox, so i'm realllly stubborn. :D8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.A. I don't have any piercings anymore, but I have two tattoos. One on my back it's a pentagram that was copied off my promise ring from my best friend, and then a celtic knot on the back on my neck. 9) Worst Habit?A. PROCRASTINATION.10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?A. Hells yeah!11) What is your favorite sport?A. For me personally? It used to be softball, but to watch? Would either be basketball or football...12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?A. Both. It depends on the situation. 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?A. Chat for hours prolly.14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?A. I don't really know...15) Tell me one weird fact about you.A. I am afraid of sleeping alone, I once said that I would pay a hooker just to lay next to me in bed so I wouldn't have to sleep alone, keep in mind I didn't want to have sex with the hooker, just for them to lay next to me! 16) Do you have any pets?A. I have a ferret named Benjamin C. Beaureguard.. but in my house we also have Daveni the hamster, Delilah the guinea pig, Pi & Warrior & Patchy the dogs.17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?A. I would be like OMG! :O18) What was your first impression of me? (Alternatively, why do they always ask this in memes? Or better yet, why should I care?)A. I don't really remember.19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?A. I've got no problem with clowns, seeing as I like the movie "It" and I live next door to professional clowns. 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?A. Weight. 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?A. partners in crime :D22) What color eyes do you have?A. Blueish green23) Ever been arrested?A. Once, 3 days after I turned 18. 24) Bottle or can soda?A. Really doesn't matter to me, just have some dew in it!25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?A. Pay off student loans, buy a nice used car, and then put the rest on house bills.27) What's your favorite place to hang at? A. The lake or a park.28) Do you believe in ghosts?A. Yep..29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?A. Sit here at the puter.30) Do you swear a lot?A. Yep, though I don't think I do.31) Biggest pet peeve?A. Sipping the pop off the little ring on the outside of the pop can... 32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?A. Unknowing I guess.33) Do you believe in/appreciate romance? (I don't get the "slash appreciate" here. If you believe in it, it would seem you appreciate it. If you don't, well...)A. Yep.34) Why do memes always have at least one question missing?!A. Who knows? People can't count?35) Do you believe in God? A. Depends on which one you are talking about. :)36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? A. Sure.