"You do know that this is therapy, right?"

That was the first question my new therapist asked me at our first session yesterday. I thought it was quite odd... Who doesn't know that they are going to a therapy session? Well... nevermind. Ever since the two break downs that happened about 3 weeks ago, I've been on medicine and now I am going to therapy. To be completely honest I feel a lot better. I don't feel like i'm drowning in emotion anymore. So, more updates as I try to get my life re-arranged. :)

Ashli

TMI Tuesday

So, I found this ne interesting and thought I might as well share.

1. What is the strangest thing you have ever inserted or seen inserted (in a sexual manner) in person? I've heard not ever seen in person, but a friend in junior high *swore* that her sister used to masturbate with a 20oz pop bottle. *shudders*


2. Have you ever had sex anyone whose name started with a J?
I don't believe that I ever have.

3. Have you ever been outside completely naked?
Oh yeah, and I enjoyed every minute of it!

4. Do you prefer music, tv, or other noise in the background when you have sex? *shrugs* It doesn't really matter... once in the act I don't hear much unless it's someone knocking or moving around the house.

5. Have you ever used ice for sexual purposes?
Oh hell yeah!

Bonus: Have you ever been propositioned for group sex?
Yes. And I have on a couple of occasions. It was .... different.

*no title*

So... I finally broke down and went to the doctors and told him what was going on. I also had to talk to a crisis team member an now I have a referral to see a therapist. They are supposed to call me next week. Gotta start my first dose of Clonazepam tonight and Effeckzor tomorrow. Joyous right? Anything to feel better. I really hope this helps...

Finally....

So, after 6 years of battling the state of Iowa my mother has finally been approved for her SSDI. It lifts a great burden off of her shoulders to finally be able to afford the things that she needs and wants. She is positively glowing now that she feels she will finally be able to be independent. Her and I are seriously considering buying our own place to live. It'll probably only be a mobile home, but it'll be better than renting or staying where we are currently at.

Will update later when I can manage to put more than 50 words together coherently.

We're off to see the wizard...

So.... since I am the only one in the household who has an income ... again ... and I only have a part time job *I* will be loosing my cell phone and internet. I don't know how long before anything is turned back on. I don't even know if we will have a home phone. So, yeah... living off of less than 500$ a month for a family of 4 sucks.

Will post when I finally either a) get a full time job or b) someone else in my household does.

Cowgirl

So, I thought i'd show everyone (well, mostly Kelly ) what MiKayla is looking like now-a-days. She went to get her pictures done by her sister and I thought she looked awfully damn cute. She wore this outfit (not the boots) to school and the family thought it would be extremely cute for pictures. Can you believe she's only 8?!?!

*** Sorry the pictures are small, I dunno how to make them bigger!!!***

Updates on life.

Well, I am still working at the YMCA. On September 3rd it will be 6 months since I started there. The last two months I was working 40 hour weeks, which was hectic not being able to go outside and swim but the paychecks were NICE! :D

I just got done with my summer pool league session and the end of session tournament. My team placed 2nd! I won the final game that secured us 2nd place... it was an awesome feeling let me tell ya!

A few things on the home front. My aunt started dating this guy. Which is fine, I'm glad that she has found someone who makes her ... "happy" my problem is that she now spends almost no time with her daughter and she doesn't do anything around the house. I was working 40 hours a week an cleaning, cooking, laundry, dishes, babysitting... it was on my last nerve. I talked to my mom tonight about when/if she gets disability if she would consider moving out with me into a 2 bedroom apartment. I think it would be better for us and that we would be much happier. I just don't know how much longer I am going to be able to stay here in this environment without going crazy. Pretty soon here I am going to get another part time job (when they start looking for holiday help) that way I'll be able to save up some money to move out next year.

Also, I am taking a mini-vacation. I am going to my sisters house for 4 days. I am excited to be able to see my little niece who I haven't been able to see in over a year. Speaking of my sister, her and I have been talking a lot more lately. It's nice to be able to openly talk to her again, AND she lets me get a word in edgewise! :D

Well, hopefully I'll remember to post more often. I do read everyone's blogs still ....

Ashli